صفحة من مذكراتي....عالم الألعاب الإلكترونية

بدأت بفترة عمرية اصغر منك بكثيييييير...
بدايني كانت بمراقبة اخوتي الكبار و هم يلعبون علىجهاز "أميجا" و جهاز "أمستراد" لم يكن مسموح لي باللعب او لمس اي شيء! كنت اراقب فقط...كان عمري اقل من 5 سنوات... استمرت متابعتي و ذهولي للعبة النينجا....و لعبة رامبو...الى ان اشترو اخوتي جهاز  الاتاري...و هنا تم السماح لي باللعب لكن فقط بحضور احدى اخوي الكبار...و على تفاهة الألعاب الا انها كانت تستهةيني و كنت في قمة السعادة و انا العبها....و بعدها اشترا لنا والدي رحمه الله جهاز صخر لي و لخواتي كان مسليا جدا و كنت العب به اكثرهم و لم يكن مماوك لشخص فالكل يلعب به وقت ما يشاء.

كنا بالكويت....و حصل الغزو و خرجنا لنكمل حياتنا بالأردن و مع نقل الأثاث للأسف ضاعت الاتاري...و لكن حصلت مفاجئة عوضتني عن خسارتي...جائتني فاميلي جيم هدية من اخي الكببر المقيم بأمريكا....هذه كانت بدايتي الفعلية مع عالم الألعاب...فهذا كان جهازي وحدي! عشت ساعات من المتعة برففة ماريو و الدبابات و بومبر مان! كان عمري 8 سنوات فقط! على الرغم من المتعة الكبيرة لكني كنت احسانه ينقصني شيء جديد...حتى تعرفت على جهاز السيجا و تحديدا لعبة مورتال كومبات الاولى و الرسومات البشرية...كانت عند اصدقائي! بعت الفامياي يجم و اشتريت الجهاز بعد فترة قصيرة و ازدادات ساعات لعبي أكثر و أكثر! و سرعة سونيك و وحشية مورتال كومبات بجميع اصداراتها شدتني كثيرا....و لكن ماهي الا بضع سنوات حتى تعرفت على السوبر نيتندو و فاينل فايت و سوبر ماريو....و بفترة اقصر انتقلت الى النينتندو 64...التي تطل عندي بسبب ظهور البلاي ستيشن مرورا بريزيدنت إيفل و كراش و غيرها....

كل ما سبق هو بداية مبدئية لي بعالم الألعاب...اللعبتين التا غيرتا نظرتي لعالم الألعاب هم:
Metal gear solid
Final Fantasy 6

بعدها للاسف كبرت...و تغربت و استقليت لوحدي...و تثارعت مع الحياة فابتعدت سنوات عن عالم الالعاب و اكني كنت دائما أتابع الاخبار و احضر فيديوات و تقارير...اشتريت بلاي ستيشن في أواخر أيامها....تحديدا بسنة 2007....
و حاولت اللحاق بما فاتني من العال و تعرفت على اونيموشا و جود اوف وور و غيرها....
و للمتابعة بعالم الألعاب اشتريت بي اس بي...خصيصا للعب الجزئين الخاصين بجود اوف وور...

بعدها تزوجت و لحد هذه اللحظة لم اقتني اي جهاز الا الوي الذي اشتريته لابني ريان الذي يبلغ من العمر حاليا 4 سنوات...
لكني لا ارى فيه انجذابه لعالم الألعاب مثلي...او لانه لا يزال صغير على عشث الألعاب....كل ما يستهويه ماريو كارت و ألعاب التصويب البسيطة و السيارات بشكل عام.

الزواج و الغربة و مسؤوليات البيت و وجود اطفال تمنعني من شراء بلاي ستيشن 4 فمن غير المناسب لعب ألعاب قتالية امام الأطفال...و صعب بل و قمة الحقارة ان أتركهم مع أمهم و ادخل احبس نفسي مع الألعاب بالغرفة الثانية...

لكني أتأمل ان أعود لعالم الألعاب خلال العام المقبل ان شاءالله

الرجل هو من يمتلك نفسه ساعة الغضب

كثيرا ما سمعت هذه الجملة في مختلف مراحل حياتي "الرجل هو الذي يمتلك نفسه ساعة الغضب" و بطبيعة الحال و باعتبار أني شخص هاديء بطبيعتي فلم أعتقد يوما ما بأني قد أفقد أعصابي و أتفوه بكلمات تؤذي أعز الأشخاص في حياتي و بدون قصد...

لا أعلم ما السبب لكنه بشكل أو بآخر مرتبط بالشيطان و وسوساته بين المتزوجين....  بكل الأحوال أنا أخطأت بحق زوجتي و لا أعتقد أن الإعتذار قد يكون كافيا فالكلمات القاسية أسوء من الجراح فلا يمكن تضميدها أحيانا و آثارها قد لا تزول أبدا...أنا أعترف أنني بالغت بردة فعلي بكل ما حصل...أنا أعترف باني أخطأت بحقك و كل أسف و ندم على كل كلمة صدرت من فمي...لا أعلم كيف أصف ما حدث لي لكني و الله شاهد على ما أقول أحسست بأن شيءا ما قد تملكني و سيطر علي و على عقلي و لم أستيقظ على نفسي الا بعد أن انهمرت دموعك الغالية أمام عيني فجلست كالأبله أنظر الى السقف و الأرض لا أرسل و لا أستقبل فمن جهة هنالك صوت صغير بداخلي يقول لي "معك حق بكل ما قلته" و لكن الصوت الأقوى كان يخاطبني قائلا "أنت أحقر مخلوق ...أنت شخص أناني لا تصون العشرة و لا تزن كلماتك قبل نطقها" هذا ما أخرسني و يا ليتني انخرست قبل اهانتي لها و جرحها جرح بالغ لا أعلم ان كانت مدونة مكتوبة من أعماق قلبي قد تلئم جزء صغير من هذا الجرح الكبير...

نور حبيبتي، أم أولادي، ستري و غطائي لا أملك الشجاعة الكافية لكي أقبل جبينك الأبيض و قدميك طالبا منك مسامحتي على أي اهانة وجهتها لكي بأي يوم...أعتقد أنك متأكدة أن حياتي بدونك فارغة لا معنى و لا طعم لها، بأنك أكثر من نصفي الثاني فأنتي لم تكمليني بما ينقصني فقط بل أضفت اليزالكثير الكثير و لونتي حياتي و بشكل أدق "نورتي حياتي" سامحيني حبيبتي و سأترك لكي الحرية الكاملة في اصدار القرارات فيما يتعلق بسفرنا فبالنهاية كل شيء عند الله و هو مكتوب علينا.

تلج و ضباب و دخان و قهوة = ذكرى لا تنسى

قبل مبارح كنا طالعين بالسيارة و كانت ضباب من جوه فتزكرت هاي القصة و حكيتها لنور و حششت ضحك ...

بتتزكر لما روحت من الشغل تقريبا عل 9 المسا ...
ميلت عليك و أخدتك و روحنا شربنا كاسة قهوة مغلية (دبل) من شارع الجامعة
وقتيها قعدنا بالسيارة و كانت شتا، سكرنا الشبابيك و صرنا ندخن و ندردش و أعتقد لعبنا عل موبايل مع بعض...قضينا عل أقل ساعة أو أكتر و احنا قاعدين بالسيارة بندخن و بنشرب بكاسة القهوة الدبل....

و بما انو كانت شتا، و الشبابيك مسكرة و التدفئة بالسيارة شغالة و أنا وياك كنا قالبينها محششة صار فيه ضباب بالسيارة و بطلنا نقدر نشوف شي من الشباك و احنا طبعا ما فرقت معنا و لا كلفنا خاطرنا نمسح القزاز حتى!
و بس قررنا انو نروح مسحنا القزاز و اكتشفنا انو الدنيا أتلجت و التلج مسك على الأرض و الشوارع تقريبا شبه فضيت! و كيف بدنا نروح السيارة بتزحلق عل تلج! و الي زاد الطين بلة انو الموبايلات كانت أظن مو شغالة...
وقتها روحتك بالأول و أظن أخدت معي الطريق ساعة لوصلت بيتي بينما بغير التلجة كانت بتاخد 20 دقيقة...

هاي الذكرى الجميلة كانت مع صديق الطفولة العزيز محمد السكسك.

An accident Souvenir

Fate will always leave a remark that will remind you of a day where you faced death...
Thanks god im still alive...farewell my air-bags you've done your job and I'll always remember you coz your indicator will always be ON!!! 

Rent a car

Ok let me share something little bit old....Few months ago i was in Bahrain, i rented a car and it got hit while it was parked in the hotel, there was some scratches *little polish will remove it!

The rent a car office was in the Airport, i went there and i never thought they will find these scratches,,, well i was wrong they found them and that employee was REALLY fast on flipping the contract papers and without even looking he pointed his finger to an atricle where it says (if car was hit or got any scratch without informing the police the driver have to pay a 200 Bahraini Dinar penalty!!!!

my plane was taking off within 90 min! i started negotiating with the staff, they didn't care about anything they told me (either pay or we will call the police and they will make report on which if you found guilty you will pay us, otherwise you're free to go!

in the end we reached a settlement of 120BD plus of course the rent fees

this was the only solution not to miss my plane...

My MBTI

who ever is REALLY interested to know me VERY WELL read this professional
This is my MBTI (http://bit.ly/HMgwf2 )

	MBTI E N F J Insightful Contributor: Communicate & Cooperate "Two heads are better than one" Strengths You are an Extrovert with Feeling as your strongest dominant function and Intuition as your second strongest "helping" function. This means that your greatest strength is your ability to make decisions that are based on their impact on those around you. You are decisive, collaborative, and considerate. You acknowledge and appreciate others. You evaluate ideas according to your personal values and bring strong ideals of how organizations should treat people. You are able to lead and act as a great facilitator of communication between people. Your second greatest strength (helping function) is your ability to take in information by focusing on the future possibilities for people. You seek new ideas and possibilities for an organization while enthusiastically steering the organization to make things better for people. You are skilled at identifying opportunities that develop human potential and improve people's situations. Careers and ideal work environment ENFJs are likely to do well in occupations that allow them to help others with their emotional, spiritual, or intellectual growth. Those include, but are not limited to, Teaching; Counseling; Writing self-help books or articles; Special Education; Environmental Science; Social Work; Human Resource Development; Acting; Directing; Religion; and Art. ENFJs enjoy working with people who are focused on the betterment of others. They can be good team-members as long as the tasks are clearly defined and everyone on the team works toward bringing about change that makes things better for people. As an ENFJ your ideal work environment is one containing empathetic people focused on improving things for others. You like to work in a sociable environment that is structured and goal oriented. You also like to work in an environment that is harmonious and encourages self-expression. You like to work in an environment that is people-oriented and rewards support and appreciation. General areas for development As an Extrovert, you may overextend and try to do too much. If so, you are strongly encouraged to balance your idealism with practicality and create realistic expectations of yourself and others. Your blind spots include your Sensing and your Thinking; those are referred to as your tertiary and inferior functions, respectively. In taking in the information around you, you may be so focused on the people involved that you may neglect practical realities. If so, you are strongly encouraged to pay as much attention to important details as you do to the people involved. Because you base your decisions on people and values, as opposed to logical analysis, you are likely to ignore common sense in your decision-making. You are likely to idealize people to the extent that you may suffer from blind loyalty. If so, you are strongly encouraged to factor in facts and logic in your decision-making; you may need to recognize the limitations of people and guard against unquestioning loyalty. Being a J, you are likely to set goals and strive to achieve them. However, your desire to help others while simultaneously achieving goals may lead you to become overwhelmed and overcommitted. If so, you are strongly encouraged to compromise when looking for effective ways to complete tasks; you are encouraged to balance the needs of people with business deadlines. It is not always possible to solve all interpersonal conflicts in the workplace; you may need to leave some issues alone and to choose what issues to work on. Being aware of your blind spots is vital. It sheds light on the areas that you need to develop. For example, it is important that you remind yourself to take practical details into consideration. It is also important that you try to balance the demands of a task with relationship issues. It is important that you include more flexibility in your work environment. Finally, it is important that you balance your desire for harmony with a logical analysis of the situation. Knowing your own, and other people's, type is very helpful. It allows you to appreciate differences instead of being frustrated by them. In knowing what your strengths are, you are able to capitalize on them. In knowing what your blind spots are, you can take steps to compensate for them. One way you can take steps to compensate for your blind spots is to seek the assistance of someone who does not share your type. Extroverts tend to act first and think later. This is an advantage in cases that need an immediate response. However, it can also be a disadvantage in cases that require some time to think before acting. As a rule, in order to avoid taking hasty action, you are encouraged to take two steps back before responding or making a decision. If you find yourself unable to do so, you are encouraged to seek the assistance of an Introvert who will surely give you invaluable input. Make sure, however, that you allow the Introvert the time he or she needs to reflect. Intuitive people are more comfortable dealing with matters that require creativity and imagination. They are very much about "what can be" as opposed to "what is". They are instinctively aware of the large picture and the long-term ramifications of a situation. This is an advantage in cases that require a creative response that meets the long-term vision of a situation. However, it can be a disadvantage in cases that require a more practical response that is appropriate to the day-to-day realities of a situation. As a rule, you are encouraged to consciously include practical details in your view of things and to push yourself to be more realistic. If you find yourself unable to do so, you are encouraged to seek the assistance of a Sensing person who will surely provide you with the "reality check" and practical input that you need. Feeling people are more comfortable making decisions based on their impact on those around them. They love to come up with solutions that foster harmony and advance personal values. They will see and emphasize the positive. This is an advantage in cases that require a personal response that is mutually acceptable to others. It can, however, be a disadvantage in cases that require a more logical response. As a rule, you are encouraged to push yourself to take more logical, and less personal, matters into consideration when making your decisions. If you find yourself unable to do so, you are encouraged to seek the assistance of a Thinking person who will surely provide you with the logical input that you need. Judging people are more comfortable making plans and taking immediate action. They love to put closure to matters before moving on to the next thing. They lead a structured life, setting goals and working to achieve them. This is an advantage in cases that require setting objectives, making plans and methodically implementing them. It can, however, be a disadvantage in cases that require a more flexible response. In those cases, what is needed is to deal with matters are they arise. As a rule, you are encouraged to include more flexibility in your life. This will help you to feel less overwhelmed when things do not go according to plan. If you find yourself unable to do so, you are encouraged to seek the assistance of a Perceiving person who will surely provide you with the calmer, more adaptive view that you need. Communication strengths and areas for development When you express yourself, you are warm, enthusiastic, compassionate, and encouraging. You are friendly and are able to easily connect with others. You treat everyone as a unique individual. You like to hear about people's personal values and ideas. You are able to combine vision, strategic planning, task orientation, and a focus on others' needs. You are highly empathetic and give others positive feedback. You are sensitive to group dynamics and are able to highlight and integrate others' ideas and input. You are able to discuss abstract theories and concepts and expect others to contribute. You like to hear communication that includes general guidelines and leaves room for personal judgement and decisions. You like to hear communication that is cooperative and collaborative with a focus on consensus building. You like to hear communication that advocates for employee development and growth. You do not like to hear communication that is more focused on results than on people. You do not like to hear communication that is focused only on short-term or immediate results. You do not like to hear communication that is cold, indifferent, or impersonal. In your focus on people, you are likely to use language that is too passionate and emotional. If so, you are strongly encouraged to use language that is calm, logical, and practical. You may also avoid critiquing others, even when critique is needed; make a conscious effort to give corrective feedback. Also try not to take constructive feedback that is directed at you personally. In your focus on future possibilities, you are likely to express yourself in a vague manner. If so, you are strongly encouraged to include more detail and concrete examples in your communication. Make a conscious effort to present information in a sequential order while showing pros and cons. As a rule, you are encouraged use more practical and logical language in promoting your ideas; you are encouraged to include more logic and less passion in your communication.

Deja Vu all over again Mother's Day

" One of the many reasons why I choose you to be my wife was the motherly merciful peaceful look in your eyes, When we got engaged I used to stare at them just imagining how great mother you will be in the future, I had no doubt I was sure that I WANT YOU TO BE THE MOTHER OF MY CHILDREN!

And now after Allah granted us with Rayyan, you’ve become the caring mother anyone wish to have, winning in this contest will NOT be the only present you will get this year, but a complementary one, just like I surprised you last year, I want to surprise you again now, a very special gift will be waiting for you whether we win or not …..Happy Mother's Day Noor :) "

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I didn't win...so what! :)
i'm gonna buy you Hair Straightener, i got my eyes on a good Phillips one ;)
and Rayyan will buy you a nice perfume too :D

NOW the good part is, tomorrow  i'll bring some grocery, i will hide the gifts inside the bags, and of course i will then remove the gifts and keep it some where until Thursday comes, where i will bring a Cake to celeberate Mother's day, o while you're happy with the cake i will surprise you with the gifts ...Ohh god i can't imagine how you will act when you see me bringing the gifts from the room loooooooool it was there and you didn't know about it :D

Happy Mothers day Noorty :)